My Pain

I know he loved her ex-girl friend so much until now. I came to his life a month after they separated each other and few months later, he knew her ex-girl friend told lies about her engagement with her ex. 

I never has problem with this girl until I know love conversation transcript from LINE account between them that I found in email when he told me to send email using his account when he was still relationship with me. It hurts me so much until now. I can't imagine how he can send love massage each other and saved it in email.

I was angry and our relation became different until now. I never trust again him 100% again like before. It is such like insecurity? 

I had history to go out from toxic relationship and decided to be independent woman. Honestly, I never believe about marriage life will perfect. I never give again all of my attention like before. I do peace to my self. I learn to love my self. 

Am I angry with this girl?

Yes of course. I still try to forgive her without she knew why I'm angry. Someday, may be she will read it. However, until now I learn to never give and hope all of to people but only to God. 

And how about your man?

I just said "A woman will forgive everything but she can fly away every time if you hurt her again"